♟ thoughts 🍰

May 22, 2022 - 9:53AM

Still alive! Moved to north Philly, made plans to hook up with my ex soon

Nov 21, 2021 - 3:24PM

I wish I could wear my Metallica shirt to work

Nov 19, 2021 - 2:06AM

Brain running one thought on repeat “laaa di da dah I love to drink his spit”

Nov 14, 2021 - 12:15AM

The most incredible thing about guys is probably that I can fit my hand inside of them

Nov 14, 2021 - 12:14AM

I’m so glad there’s an entire app dedicated to meeting boys to have sex with !! !! !!! I love boys 🤩🤩🤩

Nov 13, 2021 - 1:40AM


Nov 10, 2021 - 12:34AM

Don’t get high(er than usual) and use the Internet

Nov 10, 2021 - 12:33AM

Yo,, I heard they met at a quidditch party @ SUNY New Paltz 😂😂😂😂😂👁👁👁👁 CRIIIIINGEEE

Nov 10, 2021 - 12:33AM

Yo,, I heard they met at a quidditch party @ SUNY New Paltz 😂😂😂😂😂👁👁👁👁 CRIIIIINGEEE

Nov 08, 2021 - 3:12PM

Being a person who has a history of addiction, and also having a mental illness that weed is decently effective in managing feels tricky

Nov 06, 2021 - 11:56PM

When the first two ppl to liek a tweet you make probably have each other blocked

Nov 06, 2021 - 11:51PM

When the poly drama makes u lose the plug……couldn’t be me

Oct 31, 2021 - 11:07PM

Got punched in the head walking from work to the train so that Fucking Rules lmfoa

Oct 30, 2021 - 12:13AM

Cried on video call with my boyfriend for a little, after I got home from work. Lately I’ve been crying more often than I’d like to be, but zooming out I am really doing decently, working, and putting myself in position to make the moves I need to when I need to.

Oct 21, 2021 - 12:34PM

Realizing that part of my joint pain in my hand might b caused by fisting like alllllll the time lmfoa ! The huge pump bottle of lube is incredibly convenient tho, entirely worth how spenny it was

Oct 14, 2021 - 7:16PM

Days off go by so much quicker than working days…..

Oct 10, 2021 - 1:02PM

Cried at this new job for the first time today

Oct 03, 2021 - 11:22AM

Just tasted my own breast milk, it fucks

Sep 27, 2021 - 8:48AM

Wiffle ball yesterday got me SORE

Sep 24, 2021 - 12:24PM

Got my flu shot yesterday, go gt yours ifyr reading this

Sep 20, 2021 - 6:12PM

Lonely today

Sep 17, 2021 - 5:57PM

Really early into reading the markdown formatting tutorial, I got distracted, and never actually went back to it, instead choosing to use this as secret Twitter where no one can talk back. Maybe I will learn more of the features and push out some more powerful thoughts

Sep 17, 2021 - 5:56PM

I’m still gonna talk about cock on here 😌

Sep 17, 2021 - 5:23PM

Interviewer said where do you see yrself in 5 years

I said: surrounded by friends living a life full of love

She said: I like that

Sep 17, 2021 - 5:22PM

If ur reading this pierce yr own ear I dare yaaaa

Sep 17, 2021 - 5:20PM

Wait are there str8 ppl here now?

Sep 17, 2021 - 12:46PM

Lol the webring blew up that’s sick

Sep 14, 2021 - 4:06PM

Diary entry/feelings journal/vant

I feel “”crazy”” !!! As in: I cry every day and I am struggling to forgive myself for things that happened long ago and not so long ago.on Friday I am Interviewing for a job I’ll most likely get, that means I have to very quickly get used to being around strangers for extended periods of time again

, not being able to eat or drink or Piss immediately whenever I realize I have to

Not being able to cry whenever I want to, or text my loved ones whenever I want to. It should keep my rent and bills paid, and force me to cut down on weed which is cool, but I don’t know I’m really nervous right now

Sep 09, 2021 - 10:19PM

There’s this person on Grindr who’s very hot ! Caught the fuck out of my eye !

Yet I have become accustomed to passivity and not pushing actively for much new connection lately. Where does that leave me?

caught between desire and inertia

(body at rest tends to stay at rest/////

homebody faggot with steady rotation of lovers

during a pandemic tends not to expend effort to connect with new people//////// even if they are strikingly handsome 33 year olds)

Sep 09, 2021 - 9:52PM

Is it dry snitching if she’s dead🤭

Sep 05, 2021 - 7:24PM

I said I was gonna finish my feet tattoos this week and I only have 4 and a half hours left

I should probably start

Sep 03, 2021 - 6:04PM

Moods consistently inconsistent

Sep 02, 2021 - 10:31AM

I changed my time on the app that tells me to take my meds to 8PM cuz I’ve been going to bed so early that last night I was asleep before the reminder to take them dinged

Aug 29, 2021 - 5:25PM

Emotional and anxious as hell 🧸🥲

Aug 28, 2021 - 7:11PM

I’m glad I never tried to take music, or my music education extremely seriously, it seems really painful sometimes

Aug 25, 2021 - 8:15AM

mdma IS real good glad someone said it

Aug 23, 2021 - 10:47AM

What’s your favorite way to get the message out?

Aug 22, 2021 - 10:37PM

Love clicking down each page in the webring and seeing what folks are up to ^_^

Aug 22, 2021 - 10:32PM

My friend Juxi sent me a link to the book TRUST ONLY YOUR FISTS by Frog Industrial Concern. The link was frogindustrialconcern(dot)itch(dot)io and the book was good! Only took a few minnits to read so you should check it out if you like delicious descriptions of seismically large cumshots of divine proportions

Aug 21, 2021 - 4:29PM

When I was on acid I thought Jupiter was falling apart, because one of her scutes on her plastron was rlllllllly loose like barely hanging on by the edge, and yesterday or today it came off and it’s such a big chunk and I’m so proud of her for shedding and growing I love her so so so so so much

Aug 21, 2021 - 2:05PM

Hanging out online with my pals :)

Aug 20, 2021 - 8:46PM

Kreayshawn dropped a tape in April and I somehow just found out,,,, go listen to World’s Biggest Idiot

Aug 17, 2021 - 7:49AM


Aug 13, 2021 - 7:46PM

Going to a beautiful faggot’s house to suck his cock

Aug 04, 2021 - 1:33PM

Forgot what I wanted to type before I logged in

Jul 26, 2021 - 2:35AM

Really antsy bored can’t sleep drank coffee wanna give someone head for a good long time and then fall asleep tangled up in their arms n hair n stuff

Jul 20, 2021 - 3:17PM

My god, the smell of his hair ❤️‍🔥

Jul 20, 2021 - 12:32AM

You said that the movement

of your hand to mine

while we were laying on my bed

could be described as a risk that ended up high reward.

I feel the same about the last step you have to take to leap off the rock at devil’s pool.

Every step you take up the hill and across the Boulder is easy and visually stimulating.

I have to wait for all the boys on the rock to jump, and goad their friends to jump,

before I take my own place on the little natural ledge worn into the rock overlooking the water.

When I do, I know that my next step is the one that will put me prone at the bottom of the creek,

for the brief seconds it takes for my body to adjust to the new situation and swim towards the surface.

The space between deciding to do something

and getting it done

sometimes feels insurmountable.

But when hearts and hands

of freaks and fags

are resolved to act and bravely

Possibilities bloom into reality

And nothing is out of reach.

The beautiful thing about jumping off the rock

is that you only have to make your body do it once

and it only takes a second.

(The beautiful thing about holding your hand

is that we can do it whenever we’re close enuf to touch)

the beautiful thing about throwing the bomb is that it doesn’t matter who actually did it

Jun 15, 2021 - 12:41PM

If feds want anarchists to show up for our trials,,,,,,they should stop snatching us out of courthouses!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Jun 11, 2021 - 5:25PM

I’ve never written a fanfic but if I I did it would be degrassi: next class. I would pretend it didn’t get canceled, and explore the lives of Lola and Miles, and Saad. All of Lola’s løve interests are really rounded out characters for the most part. I also love how the Hollingsworth mansion, for all of the rage its walls have witnessed, functions as a space that all sorts of characters who have beef with each other can pass thru, because of the varied and disparate social connections of the siblings. Miles seeing his ex and his main boy enemy because they are both there on a date with his younger sister is a situation ripe for all sorts of emotion/humor, and they don’t even do anything with it on the show !!!

Jun 11, 2021 - 11:19AM

Finished Detransition, Baby last night,,,it made me cry a lot. Still feeling sick, but hopefully I will live

May 22, 2021 - 1:56PM

Watching hairspray

May 20, 2021 - 5:28PM

Absolutely fuckin hotboxing my wife’s whip listening to Jake’s cover of Joe Hill

May 19, 2021 - 11:12PM

Eleven eleven make a wish

May 19, 2021 - 2:46PM

I was grumbling about a pain in my chest and Charlie took me thru a breathing exercise that made it go away instantly<3 they said breathe in as deeply as you can thru the nose and then some more, then push the air out all the way passed the point you cough, and then let the next breath rush in and fill your lungs. It was at the point of the second inhale, that I felt the muscles in my chest relax and the pain melt away. I teared up about how good it felt, and then talked to Charlie about why don’t more people pair therapy with somatic work?

May 17, 2021 - 10:06PM

I really like this little page bc it’s like the internet but just for people I like......private Twitter on super private <~~~3 if you can see this It’s cause yr a cool faggot

I bet I would find it fulfilling to get more in the weeds with respect to the plaintext coding stuff

I wish I could give everyone on this little slice of the internet a book filled to the brim with my feelings and thoughts about everything ~~~~~~🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩

May 17, 2021 - 7:03PM

My roommate’s date has been here for 24 hours that’s so fun~

May 14, 2021 - 4:49PM

Want to steal beautiful dresses from the store

May 12, 2021 - 11:32AM

Eating a salad I had in the fridge with ginger dressing, listening to music (if I had a better memory I would have linked the song imm listening to a cover of here) about to take a shower. My boyfriend is going to pick me up at some point and we will do what we do when it’s nice out

Which is to say, we are gonna do everything !

May 11, 2021 - 3:01AM

I quit cigs and now my voice is strong and clear and well-supported ! Wtffff <3 I really opened up while playing piano earlier it was beauuuutiful<3

May 10, 2021 - 5:13PM

Hi ! I’m on molly with my roommate and we are eating beautiful wedges of Brie cheese with pita chips and honey !!!!! I am smiling a lot we are 36 minnits in and I am so lucky to be surrounded by so many beautiful fags !!!!!!!!!!! All the time !!!!!! Miss the far away ones tho

May 07, 2021 - 8:03PM

Made stuffed long hot peppers,,,,,,and I ate a lot of them and feel very full but also salivating bc spicy!!!!!<3 <3 if you were my friend and I were cooking for you while you were setting down your stuff and telling me about your day, what would you ask me to make? Text me if ur a real one or email holeinmyheart@protonmail.com if ur beautiful & mysterious

May 06, 2021 - 11:24PM

Broke my paddle and my crop tonight 🥰

May 06, 2021 - 12:17PM

I didn’t die. I got the piece I needed for the jewelry and the swelling went considerably down. I am feeling beautiful today, would like to share that with the world. I am wearing a black dress with orange and white flowers on it, it is a scoop neck design, cinched at the waist and then swishing and flowing all the way towards the floor. No pockets ☹️ But I am comfortable and mobile

May 05, 2021 - 1:16AM

I’m feeling hot (temperature) and irrationally scared I’m gonna die bc the piercing in my neck is gonna get infected (it’s missing a threaded end piece, and keeps sinking below the skin) and spread to my brain and kill me tonight

May 03, 2021 - 4:55PM

The feeling of relief from plunging my hand into ice water is almost entirely worth destroying my hand

May 03, 2021 - 4:50PM


Accidentally while making pierogis and sobbed for a long time from the pain. It doesn’t hurt if I keep it in a bath ice water that has aloe in it

May 03, 2021 - 3:03PM

My roommate mentioned a boy I love and I immediately blushed deeply and my eyes filled with tears

May 03, 2021 - 3:02PM

Forgot what I wanted to say

May 03, 2021 - 10:22AM

Listening to Carly Rae Jepsen’s 2008 album Tug Of War while my roommate sleeps next to me on the couch.

May 01, 2021 - 8:24PM


love grows thru action taken in concert with others against common enemies

being brave is easy when you want to impress someone

even the game of chess is about killing kings

Big hatred to all old ghosts may they be violently laid to rest forever in jersey fuck you/amen

Apr 30, 2021 - 10:34PM

Also thinking abt how I wish I could speak freely on my private Twitter but even among that small number of followers, certain topics feel verboten? would have written in my notebook but that hurts my wrist!

Twitter has been where I live online since 2012, and the only times Twitter makes me feel particularly joyous is when I’m on the account dedicated to degrassi. When I got doxxed I made all my shit private, although I think most of my accounts are decently abstracted from my government name-I’m excited to see where this goes,

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